31 March 2001 Dear L., Thank you for the updates. In reading these updates I visualize Nancy doing all these things and her husband helping her and his great concern for her. As I read these updates, it truley make me think. And wonder. I, with all my heart, feel almost numb knowing this knowledge was out there and we never came across it. We would have done anything. My wife, though she was brave, was running scared. This I know. But she never let it show. Except when she was wheeled into the operating room. I followed as far as they would allow me, she was trying to assure me she would be alright, yet I could see it in her eyes she was so very scared. Something she had never done before, not knowing the out come. She was so scared she didn't want to rely on things that had not been proven, at least not to her knowledge. And yet we did know of cases that seemed to have worked for altenative medicne. One day, I remember it so well. All things had been exausted. We had moved back to Xxxxxx to be near her daughters and the family. She came up to me, as she had done so many times through the years, put her arms around my neck and said, "I'm sorry honey. You were right. I'll do anything now." IF WE HAD THE KNOWLEDGE that Nancy and her husband have, it still could have been turned around at that point. My wife was looking now to me for help, to rescue her and I had no way of doing so. She saying I was right was referring to the fact I asked her to try alternative medicine first. Well, it wasn't long after that she was gone. Maybe two months. Not sure. Her body hadn't started to shut down yet. She was still walking around and doing things normally. To say I was in shock for a long time before she died I would say would be a gross understatement. But anyway, it makes me feel so good to know there is a way. I feel, alomost, like I, and all of us, are as happy about Nancy's progress as she and her husband are. So, I thank you. I do appreciate it. And I do pray for her. This is it. Take care and God bless. Love to all, R.